Monthly Archives: April 2012

So the time has finally come.  I don’t even know what to think now.  So many things are beginning to race through my head as the hour gets closer I’m not sure where to begin.  I am anxious, nervous, worried, relieved, afraid of possible outcomes, hopeful for most…  At this point I’m prepared for just about anything.  Play the hand I am dealt.

Thanks again to everyone for reaching out with support or just to say hi  and good luck.  I really appreciate everyone’s help and encouragement.  I felt like I wanted to write a long post tonight but I’m feeling kind of tired from running around doing all kinds of last minute things around the house.  Also had to take Julia for a chest x- ray this morning.  She has had a slight cough the last couple weeks that got noticeably worse sounding since the weekend.  The doctor wanted to make sure it wasn’t pneumonia so he ordered the X-ray.  Luckily it’s all clear so the usual dose of antibiotics should hopefully clear it all up.  It was a bit hard for her to deal with me leaving tomorrow as she was going to bed tonight but she knows I need to go to get better.  Its going to be a tough few days but it will all be worth it in the end.

I probably won’t be able to reply to any emails for a few days.  Not sure how things will go but feel free to send an email and I will get back to you as soon as I am up to it.  One of my biggest worries is how to pass the time for 7 to 10 days in a hospital bed so don’t hesitate to email.

Wish me luck!  See you on the other side!

All the King’s horses and all the King’s men couldn’t put Humpty together again.  I feel your pain Humpty, I feel your pain.

Wow, has it really been more than 3 weeks since I posted an update?  I can’t believe it’s been that long.  I feel like everything has been such a blur  the past few weeks.  It’s been nothing but phone calls to doctors and insurance companies every day trying to get my left foot taken care of before I go in for the surgery on my knee.  If you didn’t know, I had surgery on my left foot on November 7th for plantar fasciitis.  Ever since then my foot has been numb, in constant pain and feeling completely miserable 24/7.  No one can tell me why.  3 different neurologists, the podiatrist that did the surgery, a pain management doctor and anyone else that will listen has no clue why.  You would think something that hurts so much all the time would show on an MRI, X-ray or something yet none of the doctors have any idea whats causing so much pain.  I am going to need that foot and leg to recover from the knee surgery.  At this point it doesn’t seem like it’s gonna work out that way.  Between the surgeon removing the sarcoma and the plastic surgeon patching it all back up they are going to carve me up like a Thanksgiving turkey!  I’m hoping someone has an owners manual of my knee on in order to get me back together again because it sounds like they’ll be taking me completely apart.  The plastic surgeon is hoping she’ll be able to use part of my calf muscle to fill in the giant hole when the doctor is done removing the tumor from the knee.  That way all the arteries, veins and muscle won’t need to be transplanted.  There is less of a chance of clotting that way since everything will be attached to the original area. If the doctor has to remove too much of the muscle/flesch around that area to be sure they get all the cancer out then she’ll have to go to plan B which means using muscle, arteries and veins from a chunk of my back, just below the shoulder blade or possibly my abdomen somewhere.  It’s all a game time decision once they’re in there when they see what needs to come out.  They will just keep cutting out and testing the skin and tissue around the area until they get to a clean spot.  Plan A is a “simple” procedure, according to the plastic surgeon.  Plan B is 6 to 8 hours alone to transplant parts from another area.  Sounds like fun, doesn’t it?  Recovery time is expected to be in the seven to ten day range in the hospital.  Then a few weeks of not doing much but sitting at home with my leg up.  Yeah, it just gets better and better.  Honestly, I am more worried about my left foot than my knee.  The knee they know exactly what it is, what needs to be done to fix it and what to expect once it’s done.  The left foot no one still has any idea what’s going on. It’s completely maddening. Since surgery is only about 10 days away it looks like I’ll be dealing with the left foot once the knee is done.  All I can do now is wait for the 26th.  The countdown has officially begun.

Thanks to everyone for checking in to see how things are going.  Sorry its been a while since I posted anything.  There hasn’t been much to update about.  I’m glad to hear you all enjoy reading them.  Its fun to write and it gets a lot of my mind to put it all down on paper.  The good news is its getting close to being done…the bad news is its getting close to being done.  I’m not looking forward to all the time in the hospital but I am looking forward to it being over!

“A man is not finished when he is defeated. He is finished when he quits.”

~ Richard M. Nixon